Thursday, July 29, 2010

Annoying Ladies

The other day I went to get a pedi for the bestie's wedding - which went off without a hitch and now I hope to have my regular bestie back, she went a little wedding crazy. So I load up the Kikimonster and we head over to the salon.

As soon as we walk in the ladies ohh and ahh over her adorableness. But there is one lady who has an incredibly mousey voice and annoys me right off the bat. But the haircuts and pedis were in separate rooms. Score for me. No mousey hair cut lady to annoy me.

I am almost done with my pedi, my nails are being painted. The annoying mousey lady comes over and we have this convo:

Her: I have lots of experience with children. I AM a grandmother. Can I hold her?
Me: No, thanks. I am almost done and then we will be out of your way.
Her: She looks bored. Let me just hold her.
Me: Please stay in this room
Annoying mousey lady starts walking around salon. I wait two minutes then ask the pedicurist if I can take a quick break and go get her. Then annoying mousey lady comes back in.
Her: She is still bored. Did you bring any toys?
Me: No, she was sleeping when I got her out of the car and I left them in there.
Her: OHHHH, Mom! *Said in a very distainful voice.* Oh no, your mom didn't bring any toys, poor baby.
Karter cries.
Her: I know she's hungry, did you bring a bottle?
Me: Nope.
Her: WHAT?! What are you trying to do? Starve your baby? OMG.
Me: Um, she's breastfed.
Her: Oh well, maybe we can get you a sweatshirt to cover yourself.
She hands her back. I try to comfort her without feeding her just because I am thisclose to being done with the pedi.
Her: Do you think her headband is bothering her?
Me: No. I am sure there are lots of things bothering her right now.
Pause.
Her: Well, when I hear a crying baby, I just want to comfort it and make it happy. But I guess that is just my instinct. Not EVERYone has that instinct.

Are you effing kidding me? Who are you?
People like this really bug me.
I am trying to just smile and nod but this lady broke my last nerve.

Then about 10 minutes later when I was leaving the salon. A woman pulled over, on the side of the street, just to tell me how adorable K is. She raved about her outfit, her eyelashes, and her face.

And then I wasn't so mad at the annoying mousey lady anymore.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

1 Year Ago

One year ago, well July 24th, 2009, we found out I was pregnant. We took pictures of the positive test. And then went about our lives. It didn't seem real. I felt the same, besides the extreme boob pain and the complete exhaustion that followed. But that day, it didn't feel real.

This year, we saw this face.

Here she is on a walk with daddy. I wasn't home. I was out celebrating the bestie's last night as a single woman.

It is so crazy to think that she didn't seem real one year ago, even a year from today, and this time last year I knew I was pregnant for four days. Now I can't imagine my life without her. She's perfect.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Old vs New

I got a second interview to the Activities Director for the local active senior living center. I really would love this job. I would be great at it. I have some fabulous ideas for it. I am bummed it doesn't pay more, although I am hoping to negotiate an extra $3 per hour since I won't be using their benefits. But we'll see where that goes.

BUT THEN I saw a county job working with children 0-18 who are living in a children's home. I don't know if I would love this job. I do know that I would be good at it, given my ten years experience with children. It pays $10K more per year. I think it would be a sad job. I wonder if it would wear me down. It would probably hit too close to home since I have K at home. Would I leave in tears everyday because no one came to adopt these children and most will never find forever homes?

With all that said, the benefits are better, the retirement is better, child care is offered at a discounted rate for employees, and there is more room to grow and advance - career and salary wise. And, really, having a county job would be better for me in the long run.

But how much does happiness cost? How much does job satisfaction cost? Well, actually on that note, will the children's home job be less satisfying? Probably not, just way sadder (more sad? well you get my drift).

Wanna know the kicker? I haven't been offered either position yet. I haven't even gone through step 1 of the multiple steps it is going to take to get the county job. And in this economy I shouldn't turn down a job just because another one might hire me.

Timm said, "if the old folks home job is offered to you, take it. You know you will like it. Worst case senario, the other job doesn't interview you, you still have a job. Best case senario, the other job does hire you and you can be picky about which one to take. In the end, it is all business. If you weren't working out for them, they would have no issues firing you. The same goes for you. The 90 day probation period works both ways."

This is true. So hopefully, we'll see something good come out of this. Hopefully, out of the two jobs that I would like to have, I will at least get offered one of them.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

4 Months

The little Kikimonster is 4 months old. Where does the time go? It is insanity.


1 week old.


1 month!


2 Months!


3 Months!


4 Months!! Loving this picture.

She has been smiling like crazy. Laughing all the time. I think she is starting to recognize the dogs. Which is pretty funny. When Charley comes around she smiles, laughs, and tries to reach for her. Love. She's been reaching for toys and we're practicing sitting up and balancing sitting while being propped up, since she is in a wedding at the end of this month. She will be riding in a carriage and I want her to be seen! She needs to be propped up and stay up at least while going down the aisle.

She weighs 11 pounds, 14 ounces and is up to 23 inches. It is pretty crazy that she has already grown 4 inches. An inch a month? I wonder if that is normal. She has gained 4 pounds, 10 ounces since her birth weight.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Some Random Thoughts

First, oh my god. I love this Mary Edwards Knopp Ranch Pinot. I can't get enough. It is too damn good.

Second, my little Kikimonster has been a monster tonight. I finally got her to nap today, 3 hours. It was quite amazing. So I was hoping that would make her sleep better tonight. She didn't go down until just now and it is almost 10pm. Way past her bedtime. Insanity. I hope she sleeps all night.

Third, I am enjoying my weekend home alone with the Kikimonster. I will be glad when Timm gets home so he can take over baby duty and I can go to the gym. But the house isn't a mess. Meals aren't a big production. I can watch whatever I want to watch.

I took the dogs for a walk today and I wore K in her new Sleepy Wrap. Love the Sleepy Wrap. I think she loved it. We were walking and got about two blocks away and I was making Charley and Rizzo sit at the corner and she was cracking up, the loudest I have ever heard her laugh. She just started laughing out of nowhere. No prompting at all. It was so cute.

Here is some video of her laughing. About 25 seconds in. please ignore the ridiculous noises from me.

Sleep IS a Big Deal

Kikmonster has decided to sleep in two hour increments all night long. This started Monday night.

I am home alone all weekend.

I haven't slept in a week and I won't sleep for another week unless K decides to sleep for longer stretches again.

I thought the 4 month wakeful period was stupid. I didn't believe it for one second. But here we are, barely 4 months old, and she's up all the time.

I am angry at Timm for not offering to help with her at night. I am angry at myself for not making a bigger deal out of asking him to help. I am angry at him for going to a bach party all weekend and leaving me alone with a child who hasn't slept and apparently has no plans for sleeping. It is frustrating.

I am headed to the bachette next weekend. I think I will leave on Friday and come back on Sunday. That way I know that I will be able to sleep on Friday night before the party and so Timm can deal with the baby for two nights.

I just want to sleep.

But then she smiles at me, her big ole gummy smile and the sleep thing doesn't seem like such a big deal anymore.

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Job

I want it. The job I interviewed for yesterday was fabulous. I would be great at it.

The bonuses:
I can make my own hours
I am completely incharge of the creative aspect of it and can do with that what I want
I would have an assistant to help me
K would only have to be in daycare four days a week

The con:
I would have to work one weekend day every week and one evening (but my evening could be taking a group out to dinner or to a movie. It just can't be in the office - darn!)

I went into it with a good feeling. The whole week I had a good feeling. While I was interviewing, although creeped out since I felt like she was checking me out, I felt like she liked what I was saying and the ideas that I had. At the end of the interview, she said that she liked me.

But once the interview was over I started second guessing everything I said. Now I am worried that I am not going to get the job. I can't really put my finger on why, maybe because once I have interviewed for a job I have always been accepted. Now would not be a time for a first time decline. Maybe I am starting to feel the pressure.

I don't know but as far as jobs go, I want this one.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Jobs & Pics

First, the good news - I have an interview on Thursday morning. I am super excited. This job would be awesome. I am interviewing for the Acitivities Director at a Senior Living Center. Seriously, plan fun events and attend them? OK!


I hope I get it but I am super nervous about interviewing. I haven't interviewed for a job, that I really wanted, in over 5 years. And this left over nasty baby belly isn't making me feel anymore confident. But such is life. I have to go buy a new outfit today, since none of my clothes fit. I have been scouring the internet like crazy. Finding nothing really.


I am also trying to think of good answers to common interview questions and trying to figure out ways to make myself look more qualified for the position. Crosses fingers!


And now for the pics.


My (poor) mom bought a new baby session with one of her "photographer" patients. Well four months later, I finally got the edits back.


I hate them.


The black and white conversions look like there were done off of the photo editing software that comes on the computer. The posing sucks. K looks like a wrinkly old man in lots of them. I don't like the way she cropped some of them, taking out my body and leaving my hand on Timm's arm while he is holding the baby. It looks weird.


The upside is that she did fix the white balance in them, so at least we don't look like the yellow family. But that just made her warm up my hair too much and it looks unnaturally red. Boo.


And she wants me to buy some?


Probably not gonna happen.


And because a post is better with a pic - check out Miss K! She was almost (ok she balanced for less than a minute, but still!) sitting up all by herself yesterday!
All the pics I got of this were blurry and it does look like she is leaned against the corner of the couch but she isn't. She was sitting there for support and then she started leaning forward to reach for the toy and she balanced for a good 30 seconds before falling all the way forward.
I hope we have a sitter soon!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Baby Legs!

I love them.

How could you not?!


I wish she would smile for the camera. She gets all smiley and happy but when she sees the camera she gets distracted. At least that means that I get lots of pics of her looking at the camera.


Usually. HA!
I love them because you can throw them in the diaper bag, when your little one gets cold or you go into air conditioning, you can put them on and they look cute and keep warm! I have also put them under dresses in the morning and in the afternoon taken them off, when it gets hot.
Want some? Buy them with this Link!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

3:30am

The hubby is gone for work.
The baby is sleeping.

And me? Well, I am awake.

What the hell?

I want to be sleeping. But I can't.

So I am farting around the internet.

I just wish I was sleeping. I have been up for 2 hours already...

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Sad.

There is a big party today at my friend's house for 4th of July. I was supposed to go and then spend the night at my bestie's house with Timm and K. We were all going to hang out on Monday.

I am not going.

I can't find anything to wear.

I am fat.

When is this going to end. I don't want to feel like this anymore. K is going to be 4 months old in less than two weeks. That means I am 4 months post partum.

I still look like a cow.
I still have 13 pounds to lose.
My stomach still makes me look at least 20 weeks pregnant.
It jiggles when I laugh.
My stretchmarks are still bright red and ugly.
I am so gross.

I went to Target to get some cheap clothes that actually fit, hoping to make myself feel better. It didn't work. Nothing I put on looked good. I don't know what to do.

I left crying.

I cry a lot. I workout a lot. I think about the foods I am eating a lot.

I feel like I am doing the best I can and my body is still hanging on to the weight. I just want it to go away.

I am never having another child. I am never going to go through the post partum period again. I am so sick of looking in the mirror and crying.

3rd of July!

My town does a big 4th of July celebration every year. This year was no exception.

It was huge.

The biggest I have seen in years.

Cars were parked all the way by my house and walked down to the beach. Not a far walk, about 7 minutes to get from my house the the beach where the float parade, water curtain, and fireworks were going to be. From being such a small town we celebrate the 4th with a big ole bang!

Getting out of town was awful.

I was lucky, I watched from my front porch.

K slept through her entire first 4th Celebration.

The dogs barked. Rizzo was scared. Charley was going to attack them. Hilairous. She would see them over the trees and run to the edge of the yard barking like a crazy dog. I wish I got it on video but Rizzo was so scared she was shaking so I felt bad leaving her in the house by herself.

I do have some pictures of K's first GoCart ride though. Awesome!

Friday, July 2, 2010

Feel Good Friday!



It is 4th of July weekend. Love me some 4th of July.

Parties. BBQs. Friends. Wine.

Mmmmm....

And another success on the scale...down another pound. After last week's stall, a pound feels good.



I have a child genius! Ok, not really. But she seems to make progress everyday.



I was worried about her head control for weeks. She has always been able to raise her head for short bursts of time, since the day we brought her home from the hospital. But she never had control. I thought she wasn't developing right. I was silently freaking out. Then one day, she holds it up all day. It was just BAM! head control. Check. Whew.

Now she's reaching for toys. She has always been interested in them. Looking at them and watching them. But now she reaches and grabs(!) for them. Yesterday, on her bouncy seat, she reached up for the bird pull string and made the bird chirp it's little song.

Where did that come from? Her hand/eye coordination is really improving. I am so impressed with how much she changes everyday.

So on Feel Good Friday, let's all raise our glasses (I have wine in mine! Finally!!) to:
4th of July
3 day weekends
friends
BBQ
family
& our genius children!





Let the festivities begin!!
Be safe!